Breathe Then Scream…It Works

Yesterday was a busy day. Busier than usual. I was prepared for it. Until a wrench got thrown in. Our car battery decided to die in the morning. That added an additional stress to my already hectic day ahead. But I had to get everything done. We had a doctors appointment, kids cooking class and my mom had surgery, all back to back. In the back of my head was the looming fact that I had one dead car and one car that we’re gonna give away in a days time. OMG

I’m not a professional at juggling a ton of tasks but I get by on a daily basis. I am good at focusing on what needs to be done and getting it done. But for some reason I had a really tough time yesterday. I was overwhelmed with worry and frustration. I felt alone. My husband was at work till afternoon. By the time he was done, I was ready to explode. I had accomplished most of the tasks for the day but I just needed some help with getting the car situation taken care of. I felt trapped, overwhelmed and emotionally exhausted. I needed a quick release. A big cry. A big scream. A big punch. Or something else BIG. After some running around town with my husband, we finally were done.

We still had time to get to the gym. I debated on going because I was totally spent. But for that reason, I realized that I needed to go. So we went. When we got there, my husband got out of the car to feed the meter. I stayed in the car and let out a huge scream. I thought he wouldn’t hear me because we were parked on a busy street at rush hour and our car is well insulated. Haha! He heard me, and he looked at me as if he just heard someone get murdered. It felt great! And we looked at each other through the window and could not stop laughing. I was feeling better by the second.

We saw our friends and as I talked with them I felt better and better. Our workout was brutal and awesome at the same time. We worked hard! I kicked harder than ever. It felt great to unleash. My partners kept me going and we encouraged each other. At the end of class, I felt overwhelmed again but this time I was overwhelmed with gratitude and love.

I was grateful that I made it through the day. No one died. I made it to class. My car was fixed. My husband and I were on good, laughing terms. I had a chance to workout with my dear friends and let out my frustration in a completely safe and healthy environment. I took the opportunity to regroup, refocus and get ready for the next day ahead.

I learned that even though we have an insanely busy and frustrating day, there is always something to be grateful for and when we can find those things, the crap will all fall away.